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I was on my way to Malate, as usual, i got my headset attached to my handy mobile phone listening to whatever NU station can offer. The music in the cab was really bad, playing 70s disco fever music which really hurt my head including the terrible heat which overtook the airconditiong. I was annoyed by these two loudmouth ladies manning the booth of NU ( Kim and Monica - all they do is laugh instead of giving additional song information they’re playing ) Good thing i heard them stating a press conference in Italianni’s Bonifacio about a reunion concert part II. Eheads was the first band that struck my head and my guessing powers did not let me down.
Folks, mark your calendar, March 7 at the Mall of Asia concert grounds. Let’s give a salute for this Beatle like Pinoy band, the FAB 4, the music that was a part of our High school days ( i am speaking based on my age/genra). I was not able to attend the first reunion concert since i was really all hands literally with my little bundle of joy, i hope this time i could have the chance to share a magical night with the most prominent and most significant band in the history of OPM. Of course, i may need my wife’s permission on this, let this be my initial move. hehe.

Looking forward for other songs that they’ll play like Magasin, Huling el Bimbo, Julie tear jerky, Poorman’s grave, Tikman ang langit etc…

I had a fast cruise of Twenty 08!! A lot of changes and adjustments were made, with a new baby and a family to raise, it will take more than guts to withstand the pressures and obstacles of life. I guess it was in my own point of view “living in the fast lane” change is now an entrenched way of life.
Despite the fact that many couples today live in the fast lane or even out of step with their own parents they can still have fulfilling relationships with their partners. These are just a few reminders and ideas to share with:
1. Both should try exchanging dreams and aspirations. You need to joint dreams and goals but you also need to put emphasis on your personal goals and try to inculcate this with your partners dreams/aspirations and see if you are calibrated in the same direction. Bottom line is, it is a give and take scenario and it is important to put the benefit of the family ahead.
2. Ritualize and make sure to find time for each other. Setting up time is really a challenge. Sometimes, We may have good intentions but never get around to putting those intentions into action. Make some room to spend valuable time with each other, without the kids or parents lurking behind you.
3. Allow your partner to have space and do things his or her own way
I learned this from my past relationship. Never hinder his or her own self nourishment. Let him or her be with her own set of friends, let him or her do what he or she thinks is right. Let her or him be himself or herself, with his or her own personality. But we both accommodate each other by minding the children and keeping our diaries free to allow each other the chance to maintain our separate interests.
4. Support each other as parents. The notion of teamwork is important when raising kids. Parents can support each other in the following ways:
Recognise that parents and children have different needs at different stages. Mothers have a need to bond with babies and dads tend to be a support act at this stage. Boys have strong need to build strong relationships with their fathers around the age of six and again at the age of thirteen. So mothers may need to stand back a little and make sure that fathers and sons have the chance to spend time together.
Keep talking to each other about kids and what is happening in their lives. Sometimes it is easy to overlook that they are growing up or perhaps having difficulties. Keep each other informed. · Share the discipline and caring roles. As many parents tell me it is hard work being the ‘bad guy’ all the time. Give each other break by taking individual responsibility for different areas or times of the day.
Understand your own and your partner’s family of origin and its impact on parenting. Make an effort to accommodate your partner’s parenting style even though it may be different than your own.
5. Maintain not only your Money Bank account but also build the Emotional Bank account with your partner. What do i mean about this? Shared enjoyable experiences create those fond memories that strengthen the bonds between people. When couples first go out they spend a great deal of time building their emotional bank account - the memories are special and the emotional bank account bulges.
6. Keep work and home separate. We can be at home but our heads can be at work so make sure that you leave your work behind when you come through the door at night. Some couples have a regular clean-out opportunity where they talk about their respective days for ten minutes or so then they leave it behind.
7. KEEP GOD IN THE CENTER OF THE FAMILY - no further explanations needed.

I woke up at around 6:30 pm today, before going to work. I realized i was alone in my bed, “where’d everyone go?” Silence… it was scary. I heard a knock on my door, when i opened it, it was her with a naughty yet adorable liitle kid. I was wondering why she was not the same, she passed by me without even giving me a tap or even a smile asking, “gutom ka na?”, “kumain ka na ba?” I had no other option than to confront her , “ano ba problema?” She acted as it seems nothing has happened, then i eventually found out about a certain blog i wrote a year and 2 months ago. The person writing this blog who acted foolishly, the selfish ignorant Jason who was without any hesitation at that time to publicly announced what he felt, a suddden rush of emotions that he converted into words. The incomplete, insincere man who did not consider the circumstances of that scenario. Nothing came out of my mouth, apologies, apologies.. It was not the complete me i am feeling right now. If you only know how much i feel so happy right now being with you and our little angels. Sorry isn’t enough, i know. In every little way i can, i’ll do all it takes to keep the faith and the love alive. I never thought the path would lead to this, no regrets i tell you… Forget about 2007, focus on this year and the years to come. I adore you in the finest details that you have, the thought of having you makes me complete. I’ll be more careful this time, i’ll be more loving and be the man that you wanted me to be. The more complete me…..

Jason + Angie, kArl, Aeris

i understand what you’re trying to say no need to say it i am leaving but don’t walk away just stay right there i’ll fall. and i’ll just look at you i’ll just look at you i don’t know why i always feel like this it’s hard to breathe when you’re around your big blue eyes are drowning me to sleep the space is tearing me i’ll stay, please stay words are not important smiles are all i need from you the yearning, it’s getting stronger im dumb. i hope you like me too you’re two tables away you could see me mezmerised i want to talk to you but im so scared before i never cared, infatuation’s never there but now it’s killing me i really hate

From someone i knew,

The magic thing circling around my head, how do you start off something above friendship? In layman’s term, how will you know if it is time to move up the ladder, how will you figure out if what you feel for this certain "friend" is something else more than what you expected it to be. Sounds complicating? Tell me about it.

For the past few months, i did my own soul searching, living a single life. Exploring the vast opportunities of the so called enjoyment of living alone, away from the rationalities and ideolofy of bf-gf life, the romantic side of being attached with someone. Instead, i learned to mingle with different people around me, spending time with my genuine friends who has been there through thick and thin.

Along the way, while doing this, i was able to bump into someone. Someone, who i least expected to meet, share my thoughts, my happiness and my life..Someone who has been through the same scenario that i had, evryday that passed by there was never a single moment that i never ineract with this person, although not physically or vis-a-vis, i still felt that she was there in front of me. I feel that she completes my day everytime i hear that special tone i held in my hand all the time. Giggling feeling, phleez.. Actually, what i feel is more of fear, fear that i might lose her just in case she knew what i feel.. I do hope you know the lines…" you start as strangers, then became friends, after saying your true feelings, suddenly you become complete strangers again."

So when do you say that it is time? When do you feel that you really need to shed off what’s inside? I guess, there’s is reaally no answer for this. It’s a case to case basis..perhaps? waaaahhh..

to someone i knew

less than a week from now, a special yearly occasion will happen in my life.. But somehow, i feel that this event will be a different one. different in a sense that i usually celebrate my special day alone with someone special. This time around, i’ll be ramping it up with a bunch of close friends i have. It’s a funny yet an awkward feeling, i guess it will take some adjustment, a few years back, i never really celebrate it in a grand way. i usually just plan it with her, where we’ll go or where we’ll eat. but in all honesty, i think this year will be a start, a start of celebrating life. Celebrating, coping it up with a bit of reflection of what happened or what transpired with last year or even the years that have gone by. It’s not a question of whether or not i’m happy with what my status is right now, but it’s a matter of facing what’s in store for another year. This time around, i’m gonna make sure that it would be better!! You can count on it!

"The greatest thing you’ll ever learn

is just to Love and be Loved in Return"

Powerful quote to remember, but what if you suddenly just wake up and think that there might be no one to love you in return. Someone, who is within your standard, excuse me for the phrase but honestly speaking we tend to think of someone who is not the ordinary. A person who is smart, beautiful, with sense of humor and above average. When we think of someone who will love us back, of course we raise our bars and hope that the person is the man/woman of our dreams. There are times that someone may have a crush on us or wanting to be your bf/gf but the sad reality is that this person who loves us or adore us tends to be someone that is not within our typical taste or grasp. So how can a blooming relationship follow if you don’t like the person %100 due to some physical or attitude bar that we want to have. Let’s face it, the dream woman/man we want is not anymore available, he or she may be there but we have to sacrifice some trait that were looking for so at the end, he or she still is not the one for us….. Some people that we truly want may end up as a close friend or buddy, another sad fact, if we tell them that we are falling for them or you want to take it to the next level, they slowly move away and the bitter ending… you end up like strangers again… Life is unfair, love…. worse!!!

You’re the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do,
And everything I say.

You’re the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.

You’re the hand that’s laced in mine,
And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
My shoulder to lean on.

You’re my silly, mature, caring,
Thoughtful, bright, and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
When I need to cry.

You’re the dimple in my cheek,
The ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
The happiness of my life.

You are all I’ve wanted,
You are all I need.
You are all I’ve dreamed of,
You are all of this to me.